I had a dream that she was lost in a forest that was all wintery, with Lauren and Spencer and people. She called me on the phone but she didn't really have a signal, and I couldn't really understand. Then her phone batteries ran out and they were out there for like, three days. I don't really think she was in danger or anything, it was just that I couldn't talk to her that was upsetting. I'm selfish like that.

Then I woke up at 8:30 thinking that it was at least 10:00 or 11:00. Woo!

I'm going to make a conscious note to do anything I'm scared of doing no matter what, because the harder it is, the more important it is for me to do it. It matters a lot and I used to be able to, so I just need to stop psyching myself out and get over it. I plan to.

I want to take care of her like I used to.